They say I can't keep a man long enough and change partners habitually. I say the men couldn't trigger my interest enough to make me stay.
Cause I don't want small talk. Text me, and without saying hello, tell me why you got so angry at your sister this morning. Tell me about why you'd prefer to talk to your mom rather than your dad.
Tell me about your favorite lyrics in the songs you listen to everyday and why they're your favorite.
Tell me about the pet you had when you were growing up and how he was your best friend.
Tell me about what kind of books you like to read when you're alone in your room. Or the movies you like to watch when you're all snuggled up in bed.
Call me when I'm half asleep and tell me why you believe in God. Tell me about the things you think about right before you fall asleep. Send me paragraphs about the time you spent with your family for that retreat. Tell me about the first time you saw your dad cry.
Go on for hours about things that may not seem important because I promise that i'll be hanging on to every word you say. Tell me anything and everything. I don't want someone who just talks about the weather and asks me how i'm doing.
Dear S,
ReplyDeleteI understand where you are coming from. The pain of sifting through brainless banter instead of a true heart to heart talk about the important things.
It is so much easier to talk about safe and trivial topics. It takes courage to expose that deep true self to another person. To bare your soul to another person leaves you vulnerable. There is a fear that someone may reject that important part of you. Which is maybe why so much nonsensical information is often added in as buffers.
The ache of wanting to know someone through and through is real. Because in our core, that's where the most important things are, the root of our emotions, what drives us and what makes us happy. I believe it's the greatest thing to be able to really hear and see someone in that light, and it is possibly the most comforting thing to know that someone actually sees and accept all of you.
I hope you find that kind of communication someday.
Regards,
A
Hi Syarmane.
ReplyDeleteKen here.
Again, thanks for willing to have lunch with me.
Finish reading your blog, I understand you've been through many heartache and sorrow.
But you just get stronger everytime.
That's the strength that I admire you most.
So, stay strong, stay healthy, and stay happy :)