Hey Brother.

This time, my post will be dedicated specially for my brother. I've never really liked to publicly show affection towards you because reality is, we're not like the "normal" always-looking-out-for-each-other type of siblings. We never get along, we don't talk much on a daily basis and things are always so awkward. 

But I remembered when it was my birthday, you would always be quick to wish me(our birth date falls in the same month and just 2 days apart from one another but I still wouldn't wish you first) 

And I remembered when you posted my picture on your Instagram on my birthday last year with an unexpected long birthday wish(but went on to delete it after our big fight. Yes, I noticed.) Still, gotta give you some love for the effort because I've never done anything like that before.

 And I remembered when you were trying to show some brotherly love I guess(so unlike you) by shouting at the Chinese guy I was with at Zouk(protective much?) 

I also remembered when you helped me clear my bills when your Prime League team won the AFC Cup and your S-League team won the Singapore Cup. I have so much admiration for you(You used to say that you are proud of me because I'm doing well in my studies. By this I mean posting status on social media, not upfront. Cause he's awkward like that hah) But I've never mustered the courage to tell you that I am proud of you too at how well you are excelling your football journey. 

Confessions: I would google and read all about you online. I would stalk your pictures occasionally on Instagram(kinda regretted blocking you cause I was so mad that one time but THANK God your profile isn't private)

We're almost like strangers at home(Leading factor why I wouldn't be at home half of the time) It is so damn awkward. I know things can't change overnight and we're still on mild terms after THAT one incident on THAT fateful night which made me really hate your guts and prompted me to shut you out of my life and block you on every single app you existed: Whatsapp, Twitter, Instagram... you name it.

Still.. It's been months now since shit got real and I'm slowly getting over it. We're both Aquarius so that equals to both being very egoistic and stubborn and hot-headed. Whatever you think of me is somewhat the reflection of your own self. And no matter what happens, you're still my blood and nothing can change that. 

Love you, S