I had everything a woman could ever ask for in a man. Love, Loyalty, Undivided Attention you name it, I had it all. He is probably one of the most patient man to walk this face of Earth having to put up with a lady like me. I am unapologetically quirky and learning to navigate my eccentric ways is not for the faint of heart. Having said that, I am sometimes perceived as being cold, disconnected and emotionally closed-off and it takes a special someone to win my closely guarded heart.
He did. He is that one person who knows all of my deepest and darkest secrets and I pray to God he will bring them to his grave even now that we're not together anymore. I was fortunate enough to have been loved by him and I am happy that he has found someone new to love.
Because we both know what we went through and it was one hell of a journey. The good and the bad, I will cherish it all. I don't know if I'll ever find someone like him in the near future but I have faith in what will come. Right now, I have to work on bettering myself so that I can be whole again for the next person in my life.
If he ever reads this:
I'm sorry for everything that I've put you through. You gave me so much and I gave so little in return. I'm happy that you finally found someone to give you that 110% you've always wanted from me. I had to remove every traces of you in my life because I was hurt to see that you're smiling again and it's not next to me. Unfair and selfish. Two words you like to say when I make you mad. I know I am. I was a broken person you see, I didn't know how to love. But you already know that. And despite that, you still tried your best until I gave you a reason not to try anymore. So many mistakes, so many chances. How could I ever live with myself? Thank you for the past one and a half year, it was something I will never forget.
Till we cross paths again, D.
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