A rose among the thorns

 

Plot Twist:

 

I don't know where I went wrong. Or maybe I did, but just like the rest of my other qualms, I pushed the guilt to the back of my head, constantly reminding my vengeful self, that they deserved it. Every single one of them.

I was getting used to the same routine, same cycle, same playing of words but always different agenda. I've seen how some of them mistreated my kind, the things they are capable of, the control they think they have, but I vow to show them how the game is played. I will be the better player.

The beginning is always the most exciting. It's the way it is, isn't it? It's when the flame burns the hottest and the flowers blossom to full spring. But like every other good player, we all know that doesn't last. The flames turn to dark ashes lying on the cold, hard concrete, untouched and then forgotten. And the flowers, they eventually wither, because seasons come and go. So I don't put my heart on the line. I let them do the deed instead.

I loved the anticipation of having a new face to look forward to, the butterflies in my stomach on a particular date and the different stories they had to offer. I loved the sound of my name in their lips, how each unique personality reached out to me, and how badly they yearned for my attention.

There were really a handful genuine ones, craving for nothing but actual companionship and to them I probably owe a million apologies but there were also those who wanted more, to get their favors returned, oh you know the usual dickheads. Who made everything worth it to my advantage.

The break-up was usually as easy as an employee getting terminated, just requiring a verbal or written dismissal, or in some exceptional cases, simply being ignored or left hanging. I swear the constant blowing up of messages in my phone was driving me crazy and on the edge of totally losing my utmost sanity which led to the above-mentioned consequences.

I didn't keep up with this charade for very long though, not anymore, because I met someone who totally changed the rules of the game. And my life basically.