Walking down memory lane.

"I wish I could tell you what would make it better,

 but going through it is the only way out of it."

As a young child I've been through a lot. I don't usually brag but spare me on this one, I would say I am twice wiser than the average 18 year old. 

I am really thankful for all the things I am blessed with thus far. The contentment I longed for 

to feel and the pursuit of happiness I greatly sought after was now all mine to savor. 

Despite not being the most devoted servant to my creator, He still saw the good in me and decided I was deserving enough of all the gifts bestowed upon me. 

I am thankful for that.

Regretfully to admit, I am not a religious person. However I will never deny his existence because he's there watching every single move, every single deed, every single mistake, every single feeling. 

I know. 

I've always had to bottle what I feel inside and the only way for me to express my disappointment, resentment, displeasure and bitterness is through writing in my private diary. I still wonder about its whereabouts now and then. Where did my little companion go? 

As i blossomed into the lady I am today, I've learnt a lot about self-reliance. And especially about people that don't matter....Well they remain non-existent and shouldn't matter. 

Not worth your time fretting about eh?

Don't let anyone trample on your self-worth because they don't matter remember? So anything that comes out of their mouth is I-R-R-E-L-E-V-A-N-T.

"I wish I could tell you what would make it better,

 but going through it is the only way out of it."

Honestly I couldn't have found something better to describe how connected I feel to that quote above. The predicament I was in during the earlier part of my life has led me to think that the world

is truly cruel and unfair. 

Thus I never liked the idea of sharing my personal problems to anyone. I'd rather go through it alone

 because I know that I can only depend on myself. I don't like to be weak because I know it can destroy you mentally and physically. And I know a damn lot about two-faced and pretentious people 

which is why I don't trust easily.